I hate this feeling…
Dear Mandee
Don’t you think this has gone on long enough? This is only hurting you, me and the kids. We can start over and have boundaries. I want to be able to send things to my grand kids and know that they are alright and maybe hear whats been going on in their lives. If you don’t want to talk to me at least let me know your address so I can send them gifts for their BD’s and holidays. I have sent gifts in the past and they all come back except one with UTF (unable to forward) written on them. Hopefully you will contact me. I try-ed calling you but got someone else. Please get a hold of me.
Merry Christmas
I love and miss all of you very much.
Love Mom
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Did you think leaving me behind had ever gone on too long? Obviously not. Did you ever think that maybe you went too far with the beatings that you conveniently don’t remember? Don’t you think hurting me, had gone on too long? I’m angry and I’m sad. I wish you’d just leave me alone, at least then I wouldn’t have to cover up my guilt and sadness with Anger in order to deal with these emails.
It’s taken you two years to write me an email that isn’t accusatory. Two years to write me an email that isn’t cruel and insulting.
Two years.
And in it, you don’t ask me if I’m okay, or how I’m doing. You don’t show any interest in me or my life at all. Just the babies.
I’m sorry, you can’t have any part of me…That’s like throwing yourself in front of a speeding train and hoping it stops in time. I just can’t trust you.
Amanda
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